Just to prove that i am over my ex
Because according to society constantly talking about him or obsessing on the issue means i haven't moved on.
Truth is i have, its been over a year and i did end the relationship myself, even though it was hard, i finally got to a place where i can say i am rid of him.
so here it goes, if i could say things to him today here what i would say.
I cant believe i stayed with you for 6years even with all the physical abuse and the disgrace
i cant believe i stayed with you even though i knew we were both AS
I cant believe i talked myself into marrying you damn the consequences of both our families
I cant believe i justified the times you hit me, the times you embarrassed me in front of people
I cant believe you had the guts to still be the perfect boyfriend, to still sacrifice for me, to still do things that confused the hell outta me and made me believe you had changed.
I cant believe that after 6years of being the best girlfriend, your best friend, your pseudo-wife, standing by you through thick and thin, you cheated
I still cant believe that you cheated
I still cant believe that after 6years together you betrayed me,
not just our love but our friendship
I cant believe i almost went back to you after you cheated
I cant believe that i left you after the cheating and you went back to her and you are still with her 1year after
Most of all i cannot believe that even after all this, you still wanted to be friends
I cannot believe that i still let you use me, calling me to help u write cover letters for interviews and i obliged after all that happened
i also cannot believe i pretended to be alright with being friends with you this past year
the skype calls, phone calls you made, bbm conversations talking about our lives and where we were at,
trying to salvage the friendship that supposedly lay under our relationship.
i cant believe i tried to be the bigger person by being the girl that could handle being friends and discussing your relationship with the girl you cheated on me with, smiling and being the close friend after everything you did to me.
what i can believe though is this
that here i am 13months after you, stronger, hotter, way ahead in life, experienced, not so trusting but still with a heart full of love waiting for the right person, and i am finally DONE with your trifling ass
I can finally believe that, that person isnt YOU!