Culled from here
............. by Richard Brautigan
I don't know what it is,
but I distrust myself
when I start to like a girl
It makes me nervous.
I don't say the right things
or perhaps I start
what I am saying.
If I say, "Do you think it's going to rain?"
and she says, "I don't know,"
I start thinking : Does she really like me?
In other words
I get a little creepy.
A friend of mine once said,
"It's twenty times better to be friends
than it is to be in love with them."
I think he's right and besides,
it's raining somewhere, programming flowers
and keeping snails happy.
That's all taken care of.
if a girl likes me a lot
and starts getting real nervous
and suddenly begins asking me funny questions
and looks sad if I give the wrong answers
and she says things like,
"Do you think it's going to rain?"
and I say, "It beats me,"
and she says, "Oh,"
and looks a little sad
at the clear blue California sky,
I think : Thank God, it's you, baby, this time
instead of me.
This made me smile, the vulnerability of love, making us stupid and foolish at the same time, i know i have had my share of stupidity because i really liked a boy, i always read meaning into everything, and when he doesn't like me back as much, it hurts twice as much, i try twice as hard, till there's nothing left and i'm empty.............empty
PS: Thoughts on the new Design Layout?, I'm still on the fence about the whole dynamic thing.