I have been accused time and time again about reading too much meaning into things and being overly cautious,
They say "you analyze stuff too much"
I am a deep person
I never take things at face value
I am an analyzer and trust me it pays
I always try to read the meaning into things and see what really you are trying to say
The good thing about this is that i always know when things don't add up
when someone is lying and when I'm just been fed bullshit
Whether i choose to accept your bullshit depends on if i feel the advantage of your friendship outweighs the rubbish you are feeding me
My keeping quiet doesn't mean i don't see that your spilling a bag of lies
It just means i love you enough to accept your faults and believe that you have good reason for giving them.
I am hardly ever wrong with my intuition, i always know when something is off cos i listen attentively, go over details even after a convo is over and sieve the facts from lies to the best of my knowledge, i never judge though, i wouldn't confront you about the lie, id just take it into consideration the next time you tell me anything.
When i really feel i am being played i go as far as researching about things i was told online.
I am an extremely passionate person, I love a little more than others, i over-express my feelings and i think sometimes it becomes a little too much for my partner.
Even though i know receiving too much love isn't enough reason for someone to treat me like crap , it really might be enough to chase someone away.
I need to start learning that just cos i love someone and i try to say it and show it every second of the day doesn't mean the person is going to reciprocate in exactly the same way
Some people are a little less expressive but i have the bad habit of freaking out when someone doesn't show love the way i do.
Its something i am working on, trying to reduce my passion, my extra deep way of showing i care and overpowering people with my feelings.
Most people never appreciate it and a lot just think it gives them a free pass to take your feelings for granted.
I might love you but honey that doesn't translate to stupidity, if you have had a conversation with me and you still think i possess even a hint of dumbness then you need deliverance.
When i'm wrong id apologize, i never hold grudges i remember how mad i was after my last breakup and how much i thought at that time id never forgive my ex, but today i speak to him a lot and we kinda reverted to the stage of pre-dating again, that friendship stage, because as deep as i am i realize that even though i could never trust him with my heart, i can trust him with my life, he is dependable and i recognize his good points.
If you hurt me, id hurt for a while and then id let go no one had the power to hold me down and put me in one spot thinking about what you did, after a while you become inconsequential.
I'm sorry about the randomness of this post
Someone spewed me a bundle of lies and decided to act self-righteous about it.
I'm ranting a lot this morning.
PS: This is my 98th Post pretty close to the 100th now, i havent received any idea on what to talk about on the video blog so i am completely clueless, if i dnt get any by the 100th i'd either wing it or just type out a written post, pls send any ideas or comments to firstname.lastname@example.org, or dm me or leave them as comments, thanks :*